What If…

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Everyone has things from their past they sit and wonder ‘what if’ about.  It may be a dream you had once of being something specific… what if I had pursued my singing instead of my writing?   What if I’d not gotten married so young and instead did the college and career thing first?

What if’s are a natural part of our psyche I think.

There’s always that one person you may have liked at one time, and maybe you always wondered ‘what if’.

Not many people get to find out their ‘what ifs’… and what if you could?

What if, you found out something from the past was exactly as you had thought it was and yet you let it slip through your fingers?  What if you could have had an entire different life?

What if?

It really is a moot thing, ‘what if’.  Because regardless, the past is the past and though it’s nice to smile and remember we are where we are because we’re where we are supposed to be.

Am I talking in riddles?  Maybe.  But I get the riddle and the answer.

I know some of my what if’s answers now, and I am satisfied in knowing and I can smile and I can be content with the what if that never was, because I know it could have been, and even though it wasn’t, it makes me smile because it became something bigger and something better.

God works in mysterious ways and I have no regrets in my life or where I am.  I am a very happy soul for the most part, though at times I struggle like many with Depression.  But overall I am Happy and I know how very lucky I am because I have such a wonderful family, the love of my life, beloved friends and I’m beginning to see that the what ifs could have been, but its ok that they weren’t also because if they had been, then maybe it wouldn’t be so great now, and I wouldn’t have all this now.

So no more what ifs… I have to trust in God and be thankful that he has given me what is over what if; and what is… is beautiful.