New Orleans: She’ll always be “Home”.

New Orleans was a place I never imagined before I actually lived there.  I had no idea that it was primarily surrounded by swamps, bayous, and waterways.  To get there you can only do so by bridge.   I never knew what a ‘camp’ was, or a

A Camp in the Bayous south of New Orleans: Photo by Me.

stoop, or a beignet.  I didn’t know the difference between Cajun and Creole, and believe me they are NOT one and the same, ENTIRELY different.   I didn’t know about Mardi Gras. I didn’t know the difference between a balcony and a ‘gallery’.  I had never sucked head like you do in the south… and it’s not sexual, trust me; never even had a crawfish or knew you could eat them.

I lived in New Orleans from early 2004 to late 2005, only just over a  year almost two by the time it was all said and done, but it was a lifetime in many ways.  It became ‘home’ in a way that no other place ever was or has been since.

I was pulled to move there by something in my soul, and I followed the call, selling everything we owned, putting the stuff we wanted to keep in storage and loaded up the van and moved.  We lived in a small town in the swams for a few months at first, called Houma, but spent a lot of our time in the city and finally just decided to move there where I took a job working for GrayLine Tours.

There within GrayLine, I learned about the city and I came to fall head over heels in love with her.  I learned her history inside and out.. of all parts: The River, the Garden District, the French Quarter, the Tremaine, Algiers, Metairie.  The city became our stomping grounds, our play ground and our world.

Decatur Street in the French Quarter. Photo by Me.

photo by me. Decatur Street.

I studied her, got to know her intimately. I spent hours walking her streets, all hours of the day, discovering her treasures and the little places that the tourists don’t even know about.   We sat in Jackson Square and visited with the homeless, the Goth kids of the city.  We got our palms read by one of the many fortune tellers we befriended in the Square.  I learned how to drive anywhere in the city and could to this day probably do so without a map, although I still have my city map and will not part with it.

I fell in love with her heritage but also with her architecture.  The buildings built in a way that is perhaps more unique than anywhere else in the world, built to withstand the sway of a high watertable, with special designs. The colors in the French Quarter, all bright vivid and gawdy in their glory.  The stature of the ancient mansions of the Garden District.  The smells of the courtyards blooming with every kind of flower and plant possible: the Magnolia trees whose blooms so aromatic and beautiful lose their scent the moment they are picked and seperated from the branch.   I became enamored with the Live Oaks, sprawling across the Garden District draped in their gowns of Spanish Moss, and to this day they haunt me.

I became passionate about the food. Plates full of spicy exotic foods… crawfish, squid, Gumbo, Jambalaya, and all served with a healthy serving of Red beans and rice.  I learned the difference between Andouille and Boudin sausages.  I

Tug Boat on the River. Photo by Me.

learned to cook with Cayenne Pepper like it was salt.  I developed a crush on French pastries like Beignets at the Cafe Du Monde, and other places that the rest of the world only reads about in Vampire novels.

New Orleans still calls to my soul like the boat horns across the Mississippi River do in the early hours of dawn when the sun is barely awake and the fog still settles lightly upon the Moon River.

She is a city of history, heritage and mystery, where Voo Doo and Hoo Doo are real and they bury the dead with a Jazz Funeral party to celebrate Life rather than simply grieve Loss.  She is a place where I could be myself TOTALLY and undeniably ME, to the full, without question, without second glance and without judgement.

And though the lady and I have been seperated now for nearly five years since Katrina ripped us away from each other, I still long, and still hold a place forevermore in my heart and soul for that place where my Soul could truly feel at Home.

Sitting in Jackson Square. Photo by Me.

38/365: SuperBowl Snacks Plus.

Wal Mart aka: Hell

Today was my only full day off this week.  I didn’t really have much of  a weekend. Had to get tires on my truck so we went to Wal Mart because they had the best prices on the tires, and ended up stuck there waiting for four hours, maybe five by the time all was said and done.

So we got groceries, and snacks for the Superbowl, but this was not how I wanted to or imagined spending my Superbowl Sunday.

Weighted.

My mind has been full, overflowing.

I’m filled with thoughts on life, my world, my finances, my family’s needs, my wife, our relationship, my kids, their grades, work, the weather and also writing.

It’s almost an overload right now.  Things feel as if they’re building inside and eventually will ‘Pop’ somehow.

We’re supposed to get another 8 to 10 inches of snow on top of the remaining snow from the last few storms which still totals over a foot on the ground.  The snow is supposed to start tomorrow afternoon and go through Tuesday. I can pretty much count on missing at least one of those days from work as we live out in the country and every time we get blowing snow that totals more than 4 inches we get 6 to 10 foot drifts out here. This uses up my valuable vacation (PTO) time.  With this winter not even half over, I have to wonder if I’m going to get a real vacation with my kids and wife this year, for our annual campout or anything.

Financially we’re trying to pay off bills, pay them up and get them where we can easier budget our monthly income.  We are trying to fix our vehicles which have gone neglected for so long they’re beginning to show it in wear and tear and things breaking left and right.   We’re trying to put clothes on our kids’ backs that they have desperately needed for over two years but because of circumstances we’ve not been able to do much more than buy used clothes at second hand stores that never last very long due to their already worn condition as well as the fact our kids are all at ages where they continue to grow like weeds.

Things lately have been ultra stressful considering all… and this has created other issues on my heart and mind.  When we’re stressed we tend to get short with those around us, wounding with words too easily or being wounded by tone, words etc.   This winter can not end quickly enough for me.

I am undertaking the grand task of a screen play.  I say grand because to me it’s HUGE, and it’s going to be a step in a new direction for me in many ways. One way is simply the screenplay itself.  I’ve never written one.  I write novels, even if only one is published. It’s what I do.   It’s all storytelling though, right?

It will also be the first time I have written in collaboration with someone else and I am hoping it goes well for us both. I really want this more than anything and I want to do this with the person chosen to do it with.  I always wanted to write with this person, and he always wanted to write with me.   Yet too I worry about the stress of the process eating at either of us or making us get short and snappy with each other as I know I’m not always the most patient or the easiest to work with.  I also know I can be pretty picky about details and I tend to be a perfectionist in my own work.  So these things add to the pile

I also am working novel number two: sequel to the first and in rereading the first one have discovered some things.  I have to completely go back to the first parts of the sequel and rewrite some things due to ‘time’ frame.  I need to be consistent and carry the time line forward accurately from one novel to the next.  (See told you I am a perfectionist).

Add to this other ’self’ issues: weight, health, image, confidence, work, dissatisfaction, restlessness.

Of course some of that too is related to the bulk of all.

Is it any wonder my head hurts? My heart hurts? I need a mini break from it all, but how do you take a break from your own mind, your own heart?

37/365: Jack

Jack

This is Jack.  He’s one of two ‘barn’ cats we have left on the farm.  He’s tame, soft, cuddly, lovable and neutered.  He is one of a set.  His sister Jill looks just like him only a little different face shape, and a little difference in the white markings on her. She’s definitely ‘feminine’ to his masculine.

Jack is adored by us all and he’s always sneaking in the house when he’s not supposed to.  He refuses to use a litter box, therefore he stays a ‘barn’ cat.

He is my photo of the day.  He’s begging to come in and begging for food… of which he always has a lot of, but is never enough and he seems to get bigger and fatter every day.  We love our Jack.

Tweet Tweet

I have spent the past few days learning a new subject matter: Twitter.

I was first introduced to Twitter by a friend over a year ago, but I deleted my first attempt at it shortly thereafter because I didn’t “get it”.

Image from Google Images

Then a few months ago my wife (@beingcrys)  joined Twitter again and checked out a book about it, The Twitter Book by Tim O’Reilly and Sarah Milstein.   I will ashamedly admit that I scoffed at her and at the book, openly, disdainfully and judgmentally. (See hon I can admit when I’m wrong.)

Well, the more I have researched on Twitter, my mind has begun to turn.  As a writer, a published one at that, and hoping to gain an agent as well as to sell a screenplay sometime in the next year of my first novel it made sense for me to reconsider my initial ‘twitter reaction’.

I checked out the book myself.  Granted it is fairly simple, but for me that was very much needed and important.  I am not much of an “API Geek”, and even Facebook can confuse the crap out of me.  The book is in easy format to read and pretty much understand, giving just the right amount of info about how to use Twitter and instead of going too much into depth, it gives you resources on where to learn more, where to find more and the most useful thing is simply exploring it, playing with it.

So now I have been on twitter just a few days, but am already tweeting and trending and posting hashmarked topics to do so… and I’ve got followers now, and I’m following others!  I am ‘meeting’, if you can call it that, other authors, writers, publishers, and even agents. I even was inspired to try an RSS reader and got my GoogleReader set up and am following my favorite blogs and tweeters on there.

Plus I have a few celebs I love that I just had to follow of course.  So now I’m a twitterer, tweeter, whatever you call ‘us’.

So if you twitter, look me up, say hi… @chasingcorn.

36/365: Jeans

In Jeans
Today at work we were allowed to wear jeans and ‘team’ shirts to celebrate the SuperBowl.  I didn’t have a team shirt because Des Moines is lame and no one carries the New Orlean’s Saints shirts, so I had to wear work ‘colors’, burgundy and black basically.

The thrill of this today was the jeans I wore I had not been able to get into in two years.  They were in the back of my drawer.  The bad part of that is that it’s my health causing this weight loss that has begun.  Hoping that recent visits to doctors for tests will turn up some sort of solution, or at least name the problem somehow so I can get on with life.

Wouldn’t work be more pleasant if we could all just wear jeans once in a while?

35/365: Smile


Today WAS for the most part good… had lunch with my wife, was a good highlight to my day.

34/365: Awash…


A most unusual photo perhaps, but today after work I hit the car wash to wash the dirt, grime and salt off our Explorer.

Yes it’s only 21 degrees, but some things just are necessary.  I love the car wash.   Nothing like washing away the YUCK, and starting fresh.

Tweet.

@chasingcorn

33/365: Fall

waterfall

This is a waterfall sculpture/fountain at The Iowa Clinic.   I found the waterfall cascade behind the glass to echo how I am feeling somewhat today… like tears falling behind glass… only mine are not visible.

My heart feels heavy, my mind is full and weighing so many different things. So this ‘fall’ of tears is how I think I must appear on the inside today.